The reality is, you moved to another state. Like you said, nothing could have worked out. I know I'm a tease, but I will probably never see again in my life which was why I had to express that emotion somehow. I'll admit, it was a little manipulative to put that blog where you could see it, but I was also just trying to put it where my boyfriend and friends wouldn't see it. If you were really trying--and believe me, I know this is a really bitchy and unfair thing to say--you'd be here.

Just so you know this is actually quite a scathing poem, hun. If you read into it you can tell that I expect nothing from you because you only want me when you need me. You only come when you have something in yourself to solve.

I don't know what it is, but it seems to me all of a sudden in this portion of your life before you make this BIG leap to utter independence you are questioning it, trying to find the answer. And you are all of a sudden saying all these things about how you think its your mom, and you think that you just didn't have the right attraction, etc, etc.

The question is, are you trying to convince me or yourself. Are you trying to make me forget or yourself. Do you think I am obsessed or are you finding that perhaps that boy you "apparently" didn't have feelings for is actually making you second guess yourself?

Like I said the many other times, if you don't have any doubts then WHY are you messaging me. If you don't have any feelings then WHY are you messaging me. If you don't think that somehow it can work SOME way, then why are you messaging me?

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Begun February 18, 2009, 12:35 am

that's a really neat one. the reason is kind of f-ed up, but it happens, unfortunately. it came out really well though

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Yeah, I said it!!


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I won't always help you up, but I'll never push you down.

Thank you very much, Nom. You are getting to be a little more frequent, thank you for your interest in my work, I really appreciate it.

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Begun February 18, 2009, 12:35 am

You're welcome, hon. haha I hope you don't mind I randomly comment on journals and such XD

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Yeah, I said it!!


=RawEm0tion


I won't always help you up, but I'll never push you down.

No, I wish I had more people like you.

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Begun February 18, 2009, 12:35 am

I know what you mean. I hope you can find some one special for you that you can be happy with forever because I know that some times, you just cant let go of the past, no matter how hard you try. It makes me mad that some people just dont understand that.

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Over and in, last call for sin.
While everyone's lost, the battle is won,
With all these things that I've done.

Its tough, but you learn to live with it.

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THE PLAN

Begun February 18, 2009, 12:35 am